When The Tricks Are Gone

When my pretty face withers, will you still kiss it? When my lips aren't rosy, will they still weave magic for you? Today, I have my looks and today, I am beautiful. No matter what anyone says, I know I am beautiful. One day soon, I won't have these looks anymore, my voice will crack and my eyes will reflect my sadness. There will be a day when no one will look twice at me and when that day comes, will you still be there? When the magic is gone, can you handle this broken heart? Today I play with their hearts but tomorrow, I'll be watching from the outside. Will you watch with me?

My New Life

I knew it was trouble when we kissed. As soon as our lips touched, I felt my control slip away in an instant. Were we ever meant to be? I hope so because I don't think I can take another 'goodbye'. Some nights I stay up all night for no reason but I know you're on my mind. I've thought a lot about my past mistakes and I'm trying not to let that define me. I've got quite a few scars and I'm not sure you understand how many of my cuts still bleed. I just don't want to mess this up. I've been through quite a lot. I've been cheated on and tormented, been played and I'll admit I played some people. Love's been this big game for a while, a game I tend to lose no matter how hard I try. I've cried too many tears and I've got this shell that I retreat to. I've been this way for a long time now and it's not good. So I'm making some changes, dealing with this new body. I'm weak and I'm slowly coming to terms with that. So forgive me if you see my shell when I get scared. Forgive me for the wide places my head goes when I'm not focused. Forgive the things I do without warning and forgive my mood swings when I'm not that stable. You've been so nice to me and without even trying, you've stolen my heart. I want you to keep it and I'm gonna do anything in my power to keep it in your hands. Things are going to get hard and harder still. I don't know how to fix your problems but I can promise Ii can always be there when you need me. I want to be the perfect girl but that's not gonna happen. So just play nice. My hero.

Dark Dreams and Dream Catchers

I'm asking for a gift, but I don't know if you can give it. It's not much but sometimes I feel like it's too much. Just a small little gesture. See, I don't know if you can tell but I'm about as a confident as you are. I get really sad when I'm alone and it's been this way for a long time now. At night, I get really sad. My mind drifts off to the dark places where my old memories are stored. I'm quite needy, quite vulnerable. So I need something from you. When the stars are high and my sadness starts, can you be there? Could you calm me with your arms? Would you hold me tight? I just need you for one night, just one to let me know that I am not alone.

Silence In The Light, Speak Again Tonight

I wait for the words that hold me together. Every heartbeat suspended when the silence hits. The paranoia hits me in waves and I keep myself occupied. These feelings keep me on edge and as much as I don't want to think about it, I can only assume the worst. When he's gone, I find myself constantly pacing. Everything is telling me something is wrong. Tell me I'm wrong. Tell me it's nothing, because I'm scared that it's happening again. Maybe this is why I shouldn't be left alone. When the sun sets, I find solace in my dreams of you. We talk as your arms wrap around me. But morning has to come and it's all the same. My dearest hero, never leave my dreams.

Shy Girl's Lover

She's so small, you wouldn't see her in the crowd. She wears all the colors of the rainbow to stand out, yet she's still just a shadow in the background. People use her and abuse her. Her heart's been tormented, broken and strangled so she knows how to find real love by now. She's got a lot to offer to a friend who will see her. Every day, she walks those halls, being bumped and knocked down over and over but when that last bell rings, that shy girl becomes someone again. For there, across the lot is a silver chariot with a hero ready to see her. She slides in and he notices her. He loves her smiles, loves her eyes, loves her skin. He sees the things that no one else sees in this one girl. When the whole world walks by her, he stops and asks for her hand. He's a shy boy, no one saw him before her. Now they are over looked by most but the eyes on them as they kiss, they see that this is no normal love. This shy girl found her shy boy. Gave him her daring heart and kissed away his pain. He's her lover, that strange hero.

The Odd One

We're the targets, everyone blaming us. We're the gamers, escaping reality on every console. We're the dreamers, making up the future we want. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that. You and I, we're gonna run fast toward the sun. For us, the world is wide open, never ever limiting ourselves. We've got the killer smiles and the worst jokes, yet I wouldn't change a thing. After all the hell we've been through, after the hard times and the never-ending tears, we know that it's time to look up and smile. Fight our way to the happy days. Fight our way to the summer memories and the winter smiles. I'll fight for you, you'll fight for me and we'll get to where we're going. Because we're the targets, no one wants our problems. We're the gamers, laughing and playing games. We're the dreamers, always getting back on track. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that.

Goodnight

The sweet kisses across my neck, the playful nibbles on my collar, the soft skin brushing against mine as I sleep. He doesn't know it, but I'm still wide awake when he falls asleep. I listen to his breath, deep inhales of sweet air. It calms me. He doesn't know it, but I watch him when he sleeps, his face relaxed as his dreams take him far away. It takes me a while to fall asleep and sometimes, I just pretend just to hear him talk without having to worry about me. I like to pretend that I'm not there, that I'm just watching as he goes about his life. Every now and then, I come out of the shadows just because I can't be so far away from him. It became a need, to smell his skin, to hear his voice, feel his soft hands. I wonder how I got here, after so much pain caused by my own hands, how did I get this?

Dancing On Top Of The Flames

I won't back down without a fight. I refuse to just back out. This is my match and I'm gonna win that prize. I've never been a very honorable person but this is my second chance and I won't let them crush it. They keep talking but I'm the one with a machine gun. "Go on and talk!" I shout into the open air. "This is my game, time to play my cards, you know you don't have a chance." My weaponry is open and the ammo is well stocked. Sometimes, you have to be your own hero. I'll let him rest, he's fought well. Now this is one battle no one else can fight. I've got this. Be it Magician or Devil, I'll be ready. Anyone who tried to rip me down, they're gonna get burned by my flames. I have the gasoline in my veins and this war can go on for as long as you want. Keep getting up, I'll keep hitting harder. You can't win this. All those lies you told them, it's coming back for you. I'll get my forces back up. It my fault for getting lazy, thought I was secure but I can quickly remedy that. You are nothing but a puppet and I'm gonna cut you off your strings. Face me if you dare and bring your whole army cause I'll win and you know it.

A Dark Dream

My eyes drifted along the ground. Everything seemed so lost, my whole life up in the air. I've cried all I could and I've lost so much. When all seemed hopeless, I knew there had to be a reason. Some bigger purpose. I couldn't place it, could understand why I felt there had to be something more. I felt a hand over my shoulder, someone with a blurred face. I couldn't understand what he was trying to say but I knew he had to be smiling. That was when I knew that I was fighting to meet him. The person I was to be with for the rest of my life. I knew nothing about him, only that his hand was all the comfort I needed to keep going. Now I search for him. Through all the trouble that I have been through and all that I have caused, I know that I am looking for this person. Maybe I've already met them, maybe I've broke their heart. I might be with them, I might meet them soon. I just know I will end my life next to this person.

Green Lightning Strikes

A flash across the skies above, the air changes and love can be love again. No more pointless games, no more stupid tricks, just love the way it should be. When our eyes meet, it's nothing but pure. Someone who will miss me. Someone who saved me from pointless love. One willing to fight on every plain for me. Sweet cherry love from one brave enough to fight. All this time, I should have known. His sword drawn, blessed with my heart, forward he will march. I will fight alongside him. I'm tired of forever not meaning forever. So I will fight with him for as long as I can.