The Moment I Knew

It started as a fight. Not like a screaming match or a boxing ring, but a fight between us. It came to that silent part, the part where everything hangs in the empty space between. He whispered, just loud enough for me to hear, "I'm gonna fix it. I'm not letting this go south. I want us to be together." That's when I knew, I'm gonna marry this boy.
He's a dork. Doesn't give me all the attention I want. He is sometimes very loud when he's excited.
But now I know, all this heartache over a boy who was Mr right at the wrong time. All this pain over a girl who never loved me back. All the tears over a relationship that I kept piecing  back together. This is the one.
I'm gonna fight for him, with him and beside him. He's the one.

Princess of the Lost Tower

I think of you when I light candles. It's been just over six years and candles still remind me. Still a princess, still have a prince of your own. I've learned to live without devoting every second to you. I still catch myself thinking about a world where we made it through. A world where I was the prince. It's okay though, I've got my own hero but I'd be lying if I said I don't still look for you in the crowds. It's not so much obsessive as it is protective. The world could crush me down into liquid but I'd still try and hold it off your shoulders. Sometimes I'm hopeful that I'll see that little glimmer of love you had for me. I know I still can't afford much but I'd gladly share my honey stick with you. As always, if you ever need me, I'm still in the same place. And my room will spell like candles.

Running As Fast as I can

Running away from everything I once knew. I'm running from the life I once lived. There won't be a life to come back to after this. The memories of my old life, it's odd how things got this way. I'm still not sure what forever means, still not sure how love is supposed to work. Hell, I'm not even sure if I can make it in the real world. Right now, I'm diving head first into the ocean. Am I even ready for this? Can it be true that it's time so soon? Leaving everything I held dear to start a new life with them. What am I going to do?

A Dark Dream

My eyes drifted along the ground. Everything seemed so lost, my whole life up in the air. I've cried all I could and I've lost so much. When all seemed hopeless, I knew there had to be a reason. Some bigger purpose. I couldn't place it, could understand why I felt there had to be something more. I felt a hand over my shoulder, someone with a blurred face. I couldn't understand what he was trying to say but I knew he had to be smiling. That was when I knew that I was fighting to meet him. The person I was to be with for the rest of my life. I knew nothing about him, only that his hand was all the comfort I needed to keep going. Now I search for him. Through all the trouble that I have been through and all that I have caused, I know that I am looking for this person. Maybe I've already met them, maybe I've broke their heart. I might be with them, I might meet them soon. I just know I will end my life next to this person.

These Tears Will Fall

I must not cry, cannot show how much I regret. I have to stay strong but I wish I could fall apart. I wish I could just let all of the sadness I feel flow out of my heart. I want to cry, can't show how much I want to erase my life. I've been through so much just because I make the wrong decisions. My prince knew that I was crazy and I wish he could tell me what to do. Wish I had a human here to keep me calm. Wish I had an angel to help me fly and a devil to remind me how to keep the aces in my hand. I may cry, just not around those who make me cry. I won't let them win. After all I have been through to get where I am, I will follow through and find out what I should do. I'll let the mold change and I'll let them press me in but there will always be a part of me that won't conform no matter how hard they try. I will never let them crush me. I am, and forever will be, strong. I will cry, I will hurt but I will be strong. You can't crush me. Can't change me. I am forever, I am infinite. It's my turn to deal the cards.

Of Knights and Day

Falling in love is never fairly easy. Finding the right person at the right time. To fall out of love is the trick. No matter how bad the relationship was, a part of you will still be in love, a part will still miss them. I wish that didn't have to be true. Here I sit, lost in my thoughts, my prince is still in my head. I try not to miss him, try not to bother him but in a way, I wish he was still mine. I know that we are forever apart but sometimes I want to rewind back into his arms. He always had a strong grip on my heart. I wish I could go back to that. I'm happy with my new life but my old life brought me here. Sometimes, it's hard to let go.