Running As Fast as I can

Running away from everything I once knew. I'm running from the life I once lived. There won't be a life to come back to after this. The memories of my old life, it's odd how things got this way. I'm still not sure what forever means, still not sure how love is supposed to work. Hell, I'm not even sure if I can make it in the real world. Right now, I'm diving head first into the ocean. Am I even ready for this? Can it be true that it's time so soon? Leaving everything I held dear to start a new life with them. What am I going to do?

You Won't Notice

When I put on my mask, no one can tell. I'm dancing with her, now you, them, and you'll never know who was just holding your hand. My mask is colorful with glitter and stars. All you can see are my blue eyes. As we dance, you'll keep guessing. I won't tell but I'm your prince, your princess, lover, friend. I'm your dream. Behind this mask, I'll be anyone and you'll fall in love with a stranger. All the things you wanted to hear, all the lies I could tell just to make you smile. For one night, you'll feel like a queen in my company. Don't doubt me, just know I can. Forever and ever. I'll dance around your dreams. Just don't lift my mask.

My New Life

I knew it was trouble when we kissed. As soon as our lips touched, I felt my control slip away in an instant. Were we ever meant to be? I hope so because I don't think I can take another 'goodbye'. Some nights I stay up all night for no reason but I know you're on my mind. I've thought a lot about my past mistakes and I'm trying not to let that define me. I've got quite a few scars and I'm not sure you understand how many of my cuts still bleed. I just don't want to mess this up. I've been through quite a lot. I've been cheated on and tormented, been played and I'll admit I played some people. Love's been this big game for a while, a game I tend to lose no matter how hard I try. I've cried too many tears and I've got this shell that I retreat to. I've been this way for a long time now and it's not good. So I'm making some changes, dealing with this new body. I'm weak and I'm slowly coming to terms with that. So forgive me if you see my shell when I get scared. Forgive me for the wide places my head goes when I'm not focused. Forgive the things I do without warning and forgive my mood swings when I'm not that stable. You've been so nice to me and without even trying, you've stolen my heart. I want you to keep it and I'm gonna do anything in my power to keep it in your hands. Things are going to get hard and harder still. I don't know how to fix your problems but I can promise Ii can always be there when you need me. I want to be the perfect girl but that's not gonna happen. So just play nice. My hero.

The Odd One

We're the targets, everyone blaming us. We're the gamers, escaping reality on every console. We're the dreamers, making up the future we want. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that. You and I, we're gonna run fast toward the sun. For us, the world is wide open, never ever limiting ourselves. We've got the killer smiles and the worst jokes, yet I wouldn't change a thing. After all the hell we've been through, after the hard times and the never-ending tears, we know that it's time to look up and smile. Fight our way to the happy days. Fight our way to the summer memories and the winter smiles. I'll fight for you, you'll fight for me and we'll get to where we're going. Because we're the targets, no one wants our problems. We're the gamers, laughing and playing games. We're the dreamers, always getting back on track. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that.

Dancing On Top Of The Flames

I won't back down without a fight. I refuse to just back out. This is my match and I'm gonna win that prize. I've never been a very honorable person but this is my second chance and I won't let them crush it. They keep talking but I'm the one with a machine gun. "Go on and talk!" I shout into the open air. "This is my game, time to play my cards, you know you don't have a chance." My weaponry is open and the ammo is well stocked. Sometimes, you have to be your own hero. I'll let him rest, he's fought well. Now this is one battle no one else can fight. I've got this. Be it Magician or Devil, I'll be ready. Anyone who tried to rip me down, they're gonna get burned by my flames. I have the gasoline in my veins and this war can go on for as long as you want. Keep getting up, I'll keep hitting harder. You can't win this. All those lies you told them, it's coming back for you. I'll get my forces back up. It my fault for getting lazy, thought I was secure but I can quickly remedy that. You are nothing but a puppet and I'm gonna cut you off your strings. Face me if you dare and bring your whole army cause I'll win and you know it.

A Dark Dream

My eyes drifted along the ground. Everything seemed so lost, my whole life up in the air. I've cried all I could and I've lost so much. When all seemed hopeless, I knew there had to be a reason. Some bigger purpose. I couldn't place it, could understand why I felt there had to be something more. I felt a hand over my shoulder, someone with a blurred face. I couldn't understand what he was trying to say but I knew he had to be smiling. That was when I knew that I was fighting to meet him. The person I was to be with for the rest of my life. I knew nothing about him, only that his hand was all the comfort I needed to keep going. Now I search for him. Through all the trouble that I have been through and all that I have caused, I know that I am looking for this person. Maybe I've already met them, maybe I've broke their heart. I might be with them, I might meet them soon. I just know I will end my life next to this person.

A Letter To The Hearts

Dear Prince, I think it's time to tell you how proud I am of how far you have come. After all these years, it's still a little hard some days. You started something and even helped me become who I am today. I still remember the days we spent together, laughing all the time. I wonder what happened. I never understood why I ended up hurting you when all you ever did was make my day so much better. You did rescue me over and over. I don't think you will ever understand just how sorry I really am for hurting you. Dear Angel, The lessons you taught me still ring in my head. If anything, you were a teacher more than a heart-breaker. You convinced me to start writing again and I don't think the amount of joy I have gained from that will ever repay you. I know I kept bugging you and honestly, I'm still going to wish you happy birthday every year just so you know I haven't forgotten what you said over that phone. I haven't seen you in years and I don't think I'll ever see you again but if I did run into you, I would start up the conversation. Wouldn't bring up the bad points, just ask how life is going for you. Dear Human, Although my adventures with you weren't too long ago, it still feels like a distant memory. You were the normal one after a batch of crazy rides. We made all kinds of promises and I'm still gonna hold you to a few. Just a few months ago, we were at the ball and now talking is awkward between us. You were a great friend all those years ago and I hope that you can be my friend again. I never thought I would end up leaving but things happen in both our lives. I'm sorry for all the pain I still am causing but at least we can still smile and laugh together. At least we have our memories. Dear Magician, Now you are one letter I never thought I would ever write. Mainly because I would like to blame you for everything bad that happened between us. You are all kinds of stupid yet that's what makes me laugh. I will admit to causing most of the issues. You made me feel alive yet a corpse at the same time. I shouldn't have changed myself just for you, should have shown you who I really am. Live and Learn. Now you're gone, another heart I don't feel I rightfully broke. Somethings aren't planned and how we ended, wasn't planned at all. Yet I still thank you for the wild ride and the half the heart you gave. Dear Green Eyed Hero, I have yet to do anything against you and I hope I never do. I've learned that I need to be myself around you, and that's a little scary for me. I've formed a shell that keeps the threats away but it doesn't help when you need someone. Keeps the love out too. So I'm letting you see me, which I haven't done for a long time. If you should ever decide to let me go, be nice about it because how this ends determines if I will ever open up again. So far, every day has been fantastic and that worries me. I'm waiting for something to go wrong because this is too good. One day I may see that it really is that good. I may do weird things and I'm rather childish. It may take some time to get used to me and if I'm ever too much, just tell me to calm down. I hope this will be different but if it's not, you will forever hold a place.

Mark Of The Lost

Calm yourself little girl. Your time will come to fight those who torment. I'm sorry you cry tonight when you aren't the one to blame. My little girl, don't cry. Inside your mind is prince who can fight for you. We all know how scared you are, so I'll let you sleep while I fight these battles for you. You are too sweet to be in this cruel world. What with Demons and Devils, Magicians and Angels. The world is full of those who will hurt you but I will fight for you. I am part of you, the part that can take a hit. I can fight back and I will defend what is left of your sanity. So while you hold tight to your hero, I will fight off the monsters that still want to ruin what you have found. Be Yourself around him, let him love the real you. No one else knows you, knows all your little quirks so share that with someone. That hero with the green eyes, he's going to keep you safe. I can handle everything else, as long as you fall in love with someone who finally knows you.

Magic That Burns.

The smoke and mirrors, the last of the tricks yet his greatest ever. A Magician stealing the hearts that fall into his traps. He weaves the fiction they want and it's no use fighting, he'll draw you in without a second notice. My Lost little heart, another in his vast collection and while I have run far away, the euphoric feeling still haunts me. It's hard to break away from something so perfect even if you know it's not real. His wand casting spells on those just weak enough. Once the mirrors start to break, he hides away so the dust can settle. He can't be caught in the cross fire yet he can't be too far away from his puppets' lives. He keeps them on track, eating when he wants them to. Girls will do anything for perfection. If I hadn't found a hero, I would still be lost in the tangles of his lies.