Dark Dreams and Dream Catchers

I'm asking for a gift, but I don't know if you can give it. It's not much but sometimes I feel like it's too much. Just a small little gesture. See, I don't know if you can tell but I'm about as a confident as you are. I get really sad when I'm alone and it's been this way for a long time now. At night, I get really sad. My mind drifts off to the dark places where my old memories are stored. I'm quite needy, quite vulnerable. So I need something from you. When the stars are high and my sadness starts, can you be there? Could you calm me with your arms? Would you hold me tight? I just need you for one night, just one to let me know that I am not alone.

Silence In The Light, Speak Again Tonight

I wait for the words that hold me together. Every heartbeat suspended when the silence hits. The paranoia hits me in waves and I keep myself occupied. These feelings keep me on edge and as much as I don't want to think about it, I can only assume the worst. When he's gone, I find myself constantly pacing. Everything is telling me something is wrong. Tell me I'm wrong. Tell me it's nothing, because I'm scared that it's happening again. Maybe this is why I shouldn't be left alone. When the sun sets, I find solace in my dreams of you. We talk as your arms wrap around me. But morning has to come and it's all the same. My dearest hero, never leave my dreams.

Shy Girl's Lover

She's so small, you wouldn't see her in the crowd. She wears all the colors of the rainbow to stand out, yet she's still just a shadow in the background. People use her and abuse her. Her heart's been tormented, broken and strangled so she knows how to find real love by now. She's got a lot to offer to a friend who will see her. Every day, she walks those halls, being bumped and knocked down over and over but when that last bell rings, that shy girl becomes someone again. For there, across the lot is a silver chariot with a hero ready to see her. She slides in and he notices her. He loves her smiles, loves her eyes, loves her skin. He sees the things that no one else sees in this one girl. When the whole world walks by her, he stops and asks for her hand. He's a shy boy, no one saw him before her. Now they are over looked by most but the eyes on them as they kiss, they see that this is no normal love. This shy girl found her shy boy. Gave him her daring heart and kissed away his pain. He's her lover, that strange hero.

The Odd One

We're the targets, everyone blaming us. We're the gamers, escaping reality on every console. We're the dreamers, making up the future we want. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that. You and I, we're gonna run fast toward the sun. For us, the world is wide open, never ever limiting ourselves. We've got the killer smiles and the worst jokes, yet I wouldn't change a thing. After all the hell we've been through, after the hard times and the never-ending tears, we know that it's time to look up and smile. Fight our way to the happy days. Fight our way to the summer memories and the winter smiles. I'll fight for you, you'll fight for me and we'll get to where we're going. Because we're the targets, no one wants our problems. We're the gamers, laughing and playing games. We're the dreamers, always getting back on track. We're the odd ones yet I couldn't be happier just like that.

Goodnight

The sweet kisses across my neck, the playful nibbles on my collar, the soft skin brushing against mine as I sleep. He doesn't know it, but I'm still wide awake when he falls asleep. I listen to his breath, deep inhales of sweet air. It calms me. He doesn't know it, but I watch him when he sleeps, his face relaxed as his dreams take him far away. It takes me a while to fall asleep and sometimes, I just pretend just to hear him talk without having to worry about me. I like to pretend that I'm not there, that I'm just watching as he goes about his life. Every now and then, I come out of the shadows just because I can't be so far away from him. It became a need, to smell his skin, to hear his voice, feel his soft hands. I wonder how I got here, after so much pain caused by my own hands, how did I get this?

Dancing On Top Of The Flames

I won't back down without a fight. I refuse to just back out. This is my match and I'm gonna win that prize. I've never been a very honorable person but this is my second chance and I won't let them crush it. They keep talking but I'm the one with a machine gun. "Go on and talk!" I shout into the open air. "This is my game, time to play my cards, you know you don't have a chance." My weaponry is open and the ammo is well stocked. Sometimes, you have to be your own hero. I'll let him rest, he's fought well. Now this is one battle no one else can fight. I've got this. Be it Magician or Devil, I'll be ready. Anyone who tried to rip me down, they're gonna get burned by my flames. I have the gasoline in my veins and this war can go on for as long as you want. Keep getting up, I'll keep hitting harder. You can't win this. All those lies you told them, it's coming back for you. I'll get my forces back up. It my fault for getting lazy, thought I was secure but I can quickly remedy that. You are nothing but a puppet and I'm gonna cut you off your strings. Face me if you dare and bring your whole army cause I'll win and you know it.

A Dark Dream

My eyes drifted along the ground. Everything seemed so lost, my whole life up in the air. I've cried all I could and I've lost so much. When all seemed hopeless, I knew there had to be a reason. Some bigger purpose. I couldn't place it, could understand why I felt there had to be something more. I felt a hand over my shoulder, someone with a blurred face. I couldn't understand what he was trying to say but I knew he had to be smiling. That was when I knew that I was fighting to meet him. The person I was to be with for the rest of my life. I knew nothing about him, only that his hand was all the comfort I needed to keep going. Now I search for him. Through all the trouble that I have been through and all that I have caused, I know that I am looking for this person. Maybe I've already met them, maybe I've broke their heart. I might be with them, I might meet them soon. I just know I will end my life next to this person.

Green Lightning Strikes

A flash across the skies above, the air changes and love can be love again. No more pointless games, no more stupid tricks, just love the way it should be. When our eyes meet, it's nothing but pure. Someone who will miss me. Someone who saved me from pointless love. One willing to fight on every plain for me. Sweet cherry love from one brave enough to fight. All this time, I should have known. His sword drawn, blessed with my heart, forward he will march. I will fight alongside him. I'm tired of forever not meaning forever. So I will fight with him for as long as I can.

A Letter To The Hearts

Dear Prince, I think it's time to tell you how proud I am of how far you have come. After all these years, it's still a little hard some days. You started something and even helped me become who I am today. I still remember the days we spent together, laughing all the time. I wonder what happened. I never understood why I ended up hurting you when all you ever did was make my day so much better. You did rescue me over and over. I don't think you will ever understand just how sorry I really am for hurting you. Dear Angel, The lessons you taught me still ring in my head. If anything, you were a teacher more than a heart-breaker. You convinced me to start writing again and I don't think the amount of joy I have gained from that will ever repay you. I know I kept bugging you and honestly, I'm still going to wish you happy birthday every year just so you know I haven't forgotten what you said over that phone. I haven't seen you in years and I don't think I'll ever see you again but if I did run into you, I would start up the conversation. Wouldn't bring up the bad points, just ask how life is going for you. Dear Human, Although my adventures with you weren't too long ago, it still feels like a distant memory. You were the normal one after a batch of crazy rides. We made all kinds of promises and I'm still gonna hold you to a few. Just a few months ago, we were at the ball and now talking is awkward between us. You were a great friend all those years ago and I hope that you can be my friend again. I never thought I would end up leaving but things happen in both our lives. I'm sorry for all the pain I still am causing but at least we can still smile and laugh together. At least we have our memories. Dear Magician, Now you are one letter I never thought I would ever write. Mainly because I would like to blame you for everything bad that happened between us. You are all kinds of stupid yet that's what makes me laugh. I will admit to causing most of the issues. You made me feel alive yet a corpse at the same time. I shouldn't have changed myself just for you, should have shown you who I really am. Live and Learn. Now you're gone, another heart I don't feel I rightfully broke. Somethings aren't planned and how we ended, wasn't planned at all. Yet I still thank you for the wild ride and the half the heart you gave. Dear Green Eyed Hero, I have yet to do anything against you and I hope I never do. I've learned that I need to be myself around you, and that's a little scary for me. I've formed a shell that keeps the threats away but it doesn't help when you need someone. Keeps the love out too. So I'm letting you see me, which I haven't done for a long time. If you should ever decide to let me go, be nice about it because how this ends determines if I will ever open up again. So far, every day has been fantastic and that worries me. I'm waiting for something to go wrong because this is too good. One day I may see that it really is that good. I may do weird things and I'm rather childish. It may take some time to get used to me and if I'm ever too much, just tell me to calm down. I hope this will be different but if it's not, you will forever hold a place.

Mark Of The Lost

Calm yourself little girl. Your time will come to fight those who torment. I'm sorry you cry tonight when you aren't the one to blame. My little girl, don't cry. Inside your mind is prince who can fight for you. We all know how scared you are, so I'll let you sleep while I fight these battles for you. You are too sweet to be in this cruel world. What with Demons and Devils, Magicians and Angels. The world is full of those who will hurt you but I will fight for you. I am part of you, the part that can take a hit. I can fight back and I will defend what is left of your sanity. So while you hold tight to your hero, I will fight off the monsters that still want to ruin what you have found. Be Yourself around him, let him love the real you. No one else knows you, knows all your little quirks so share that with someone. That hero with the green eyes, he's going to keep you safe. I can handle everything else, as long as you fall in love with someone who finally knows you.