Face Me, Fight Me

You put the rules on me, always trying to bring me down. You limit my internet, restrict my books and yet you still have no power. Handcuff my hands together and I'll still write. I like this little game we play, where you think you have any sense of power and I break all your rules anyway. I'm a force and there are many more like me, so many more who will fight back. We are the the ones who learned how not to break the rules and yet break them at the same time. We learned how to fight the power and never get in trouble. You live in a world of contracts and limitations; a world where the rules are outlined and there are no ways around them. You live in a world where you cannot escape the pens and papers you signed. We are the loop holes, the system breakers and the code chasers. We read the fine print, we know where your power ends. We know how to swim off the deep end. The more rules you impose, the more creative we get.

Love Me?

I want to understand forever. I want to grasp how long it really is. We spend so much time thinking in the now that we never get a sense of forever. Well I want to know how long it is. I want to see the end of the Earth and forget all sense of time. I want to see the day forever stops and there is nothing. I want to see the death of the human race and I want to see it with you. So what do you say? Can we see forever together?

Valen-fucking-tines Day

I don't give shit if you're in love, you rub that in my face every other day of the year. I don't give a damn that he did something so cute. I don't want to hear about how romantic your night was and I don't want to hear about all the useless shit you got. Those chocolates are gonna make you sick anyway. So stop rubbing it in my damn face that you're in love and had a happy day together. Even though if you do anything overly romantic today, it just means you aren't in love. Anyone who really fell in love, would show it every day, not just the gift giving holidays. With their actions and words and little bits of love every single day. If this is the day you get overly romantic, then I hope you two love your short relationship together.

Distance, Make the Heart Grow

We'll be far away. We won't be able to touch. Skin to skin gone when I get on that plane. I've made up my mind, I'll go if I get the chance. I feel as if I'm dooming the two of us. Will we survive? Can we thrive? So far away. Three days without you and my heart feels like it's going to break. How will I survive four years? How will you? Will you leave me because I'm never around? I don't want this to end in tears but I feel like it may anyway. Is this what it feels like to grow up? The pain of the choices we make? Here I was having so much fun but this is weighing me down. How can I just jump into the void? I don't know if I'm ready for this. East coast to west coast.

Into The Open Air

The wind is harsh against my skin, cutting deep yet I do not bleed. I walk forward through the pain I feel, just trying to endure. She has the same eyes. Each step is tough and my feet are bleeding. My breath hurts my insides while the cold hurts the outside. I am still walking. She has the same laugh. He's right there in front of me, warm and inviting. Is he real? His hand thaws my own, his kiss calms my breath. This must be what death feels like. Though maybe it is time for some rest.

Forgotten

My, how things can change. One moment you're dancing with champagne and next your hung over on the couch with no good memories. It hurts to be alone. I need to feel something. I'm a cold mess.

{Command[life]} == Erase

Can I write a code for life? Can I make this sky purple or change this grass to razors? If I had all the power that a code gives me, I would write a new life for myself. I could be prettier. My eyes could be more blue, I could be thinner, why can't I just love who I am now? What did I do to warrant so many tears? I've been through a lot in my life and fear it may not be over. My doubts never cease and I'm starting to think this life is doomed to repeat. All I want is these terrible memories to leave. Why can't I forget? Why is his voice still clear in my head? Why must I be so tormented? What did I do? Please Hero, save me from the torment of these memories. Hold me close and make me forget. I don't want to remember.

Crazy Things Happen

Sometimes it's the ones you love that break you. Sometimes love's wound can bleed. Do you understand how much love can hurt? I've seen some crazy years, seen some terrifying worlds. Love can twist your understanding of time, warp your understanding. Start a fever, start a fire, start a need, start a want. Start something new that you can't finish. I'm warped like old wood. I'm cracked like a peice of glass. I'm lost in woods. I'm terrified for what may lay in store. My lover, my friend. My captor, my hero.

A Dinner Party

Help me mix the brew, time to give everyone a scare. Throw a party and we'll all have a jolly good time. May I have this dance? Now the main event. Ladies and Gents, There's something special in your tea. Made it myself. Now they say that life is short but all of you won't know the true meaning of just how short life can be. Cheers to your demise.

It's Us?

She's telling me to give up, to grow up. World is spinning and I'm not ready to let yesterday go. They're telling me it's not gonna last, that only a child thinks on love. Everyone is telling me something bad. I'm a child, I'm gonna fail, I need to move on but most of all, they're tell me to leave you. I'm looking for answers but this new life is more confusing than I would like. There are no real options and I'm gonna explode the next time someone asks what I'm doing with my life. Well I'm a screw up. I'm not an adult and I don't want to be. The only thing I'm ever certain of anymore is you. You're there and within reach. Though I have to admit, I feel like I'm at this on my own.