Blood Stains on Earth

I never expected it from you. Never thought you would try such a thing. Human, where has your soul gone? Are you quite done with this hell you put yourself into? Are you done taking it out on me? Gone are the days when I knew you. Gone are any understandings I knew. Now I'm looking at the bruises, feeling the swollen marks and I can't help but wonder, was this my own doing? Have I pushed you so far to the edge? Have I created this monster in you? Where is the human who fought for me? Why would you? How could you? What have you done?

We Both Matter, Don't We?

I don't care what the doctors tell you, I don't care what your parents or friends tell you. I don't care what they have to say about you because I know who you are. I know it all now. I know those hard choices and the pain you've endured. I know... I know hun. They all tell me different things. They've told me I could do better, that you're not the right person. I've heard it all, even from you. Heard all the voices telling me what I should do, who I should be with and how I should live my life. Well I've started to laugh, make them think I'll do what they say. I've already made up my mind, you're in my future. The path I walk now, I'll walk with you. We'll guide each other. We're running the same way. I'm done listening to all of them, even you. I know what I want, I know I'll find it with you. Whatever I can get out of this life, I'll get it with you. No, you're not the best I could do and no you aren't perfect. If I was chasing perfection, I wouldn't have stayed. If I wanted the most handsome or the smartest, I wouldn't have stopped for you. I'm not looking for the most successful or the one with money, I'm looking for the one who changes my insides, stirs my imagination, wakes me. I don't need a big brother or the perfect husband, I need the one with flaws. I need the one who makes me happy. I need the one who can help me see. I chose you. Who else could match my sarcasm? Who else could see under my hard shell? Who else could repair the broken girl? We're not going to have the perfect love story or be the cute couple on campus. We're gonna be the ones who people will see together for the rest of their lives. Through the fights and the tears, holding me through the nightmares, you'll be with me. We're both a little not right. We'll always be the puzzle pieces that don't fit in the big picture. But I fit with you.

If You Were Here Right Now

Oh how I wish you were just so you could hold me tighter in your arms. I want to feel your skin, feel safe in the texture of your hands. My hands running through your hair and us kissing like we did that one day. Your hands on my sides, our breathing synchronized. Doesn't that sound just perfect? If you were here right now, I'd be pecking at your neck leaving a soft trail of kisses. My hands would be so cold so I'd use your tummy to warm them up. We wouldn't speak, just relax because we know it's not in the words, it's in the actions. Just laying here with you would put me at ease. If only you could be here right now.

When You Think You Have A Chance

I wonder what went wrong. I wonder who decided or who voted. I wonder why they did, I wonder what could've happened to make them do it. Why not me? I thought it was solid, I thought I could, but in the end I guess I wasn't that great. I wanted it more and more with each passing day and now, there's nothing left but shattered dreams and a love to hold me together. I won't lie, I wanted to go. I didn't care about the cost or the problems ahead. I didn't care what else would happen as long as this did. Now I know that it won't happen and the thought is crushing, weighing down upon me like the world on Atlas' shoulders. I won't cry, nor will I whine or stomp my feet, I'll just accept and let it go.I'll try and forget about it.

Hun

Everything around here makes too much sound. Everything is too loud and I can't escape. I need someone to hold my hand, I need a hug or a kiss. I don't know why this is getting harder to do but I'm hurting more and more as the weeks go by. Can I please just never leave your side? I'll be quiet and I won't bother you. I'll just hold your hand until you have some free time. The feeling of being alone, it grows every chance it gets. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. I know I'm not really alone but I can't see you, I can't feel you, I can't comfort you or cuddle you. Without you, I'm feeling worthless. I don't care about my clothes and I don't care about the way I look to other people. I just want to impress you. Darling, I miss you.

When You...

When you hold me tight, my heart races, much like it did the first time. When you near my face, and I can smell your sweet breath; I'm left without air. When you curl me in your arms, I know I'm safe. Maybe the butterflies didn't go away or maybe I'm just sick but you stir me alive. Now each breath I take, I mutter your name. When I'm alone, you consume my thoughts and when we are together, there's not another person alive. When you hold my hand, I know it's forever. If it's not love, what is it? Because I've got that heart-racing, mind-numbing, muscle tensing feeling and I don't want it to go away. I'll be here when you need me and waiting when you don't. I've fallen for you.