One Lifetime

This must be love. The longing, the heartbeat under the stars, some sort of craving. I've fallen in love over and over again, so many times that it feels like I was never meant to be with one person for the rest of my life. I keep trying though, keep pushing to see how long I can live with them. Sometimes, I feel like I'm too good for you, like I know I could do better. I never end it though. I always stay because I know I don't want to do better. There are days when I'm not even sure why I try to stay. There are days when I want to flirt with everyone, be some kind of player/heartbreaker. It's been years since I tried but I know I can't live like that. No matter what, I'll always fall too hard, stay too long all because I hate being alone. Now here's my hero and I'm not going to break his heart, it's already breaking on it's own. I want to help him, I want to stay forever. I want it to last a lifetime, can we try?

So This is Right?

Is it supposed to feel like this? Like I'm constantly drowning? Is love supposed to feel like you're always doing the wrong thing? On the verge of tears, drowning and yet I see you smiling like nothing is wrong.

Your Future Girlfriend

Is she like me? Does she listen to all the things you mumble in your sleep? Will she hold you tight and make the pain go away? I'm sorry love, but I can't make it go away. I can't end the pain but I'll stay close to you until you find that girl who can help you like I never could. I'm sorry but I'm a little possessive. She'll have to win you before I try and let go. Believe it or not, I need you because you make my pain go away even if it's only for a minute, I'm at peace with you. So please don't leave me until you're sure you found your soulmate in her. Until then, can I stay and pretend a little longer that I can help? That I'm the future girlfriend and not someone else?

Princess of the Lost Tower

I think of you when I light candles. It's been just over six years and candles still remind me. Still a princess, still have a prince of your own. I've learned to live without devoting every second to you. I still catch myself thinking about a world where we made it through. A world where I was the prince. It's okay though, I've got my own hero but I'd be lying if I said I don't still look for you in the crowds. It's not so much obsessive as it is protective. The world could crush me down into liquid but I'd still try and hold it off your shoulders. Sometimes I'm hopeful that I'll see that little glimmer of love you had for me. I know I still can't afford much but I'd gladly share my honey stick with you. As always, if you ever need me, I'm still in the same place. And my room will spell like candles.