Hate

I still think back to the kiss shared three years ago. I think back to that sad day. I think back to the day when I first met the devil. She is still in my life but I know she still wants more. Her hateful glares that scream at me. how I want to forget her face forever. I want her to go away. I hate her for she has made me regret my life. She tricked me until she had her way. now I want to hurt her. I want her to die. I hate her. She killed me with lust. She took control of my life in ten minutes and now the bruises remind me that it wasn't my love like I had told myself. I told myself that he was there, doing those things. I screamed his name but when i opened my eyes, it was her. I had been fooled. I could I have let myself be sucked into it. Why was I so stupid. I hate her for now I know that I am no longer myself. I want her to go away. I want her to stop talking, stop looking at me, stop killing me slowly. Now the time has come. I shall give her a taste of hell. The devil needs to go back and leave me alone. Three years i have dealed with this crap and now it's too late. I will rid myself of her.

When Love is convused.

I'm in heaven when he kisses me. Sent from above, this man I have fallen for has taken me to dark place in my mind I never knew exsisted. This new part is full of lust and passion but is it for him? The princess I have loved for so long, fill in my head as his hand slipped under my shirt. I pushed him away, why would she be here after she has been gone for so long? I kissed another, I wanted another, but I cannot survive without him. As my mind goes deeper into the mysteries of my newly uncovered self, My mind acts on it first thoughts. My love was a series of kisses that seemed to all scream lust. As my body fell into pure undieing pools of red, my hands fell over his arms, my lips on his, my brain in a dark corner blocking this all out for this is not the gaurd you love, this is a woman older and more powerful than myself. This is the introduction to Emily. She takes my time with my new love and steals him into a swirl of evil kisses that spin into bites and scraches. Everytime though I am able to take control and stop the maddness before it goes to far. It makes me wonder when will the day come that she won't let me back? When she takes my love into her grasp and doesn't let him stop till she is done. When will the day come when a mental war starts in my head to take control of my own body. When will I lose, when will I wake up one day with him next to me? When will I lose myself to myself. When that day peaks its head over the hill, I will try to win.

Done

I have made my choice. The princess gave me what I wanted, she gave me the reassurance that I would never leave her mind. All i wanted is for her to know that I would always be with her when she needed. in the end I chose the boy. I didn't know why at first but now I know what it feels like to be loved. Even if everything is new i can get used to it. My new lover is what I needed. But soon new events will force me to part from the two. How will i keep up my love without a sight of either?

The battle

I shall now return to my place as guard captain but as I have ventured across lands I have looked back on my life. The princess, dancing in my dreams and forever more just a forbidden friend and the lonely boy whom is enchanted with thoughts of me. Both so needed in my life but one cannot be with me without the other gone forever. I have walked the middle road for so long and it has done nothing but tear my heart between the two. Now the time has come where I must choose one over the other. But whom will it be? I don't know if I can decide.

I dont

I don't want to let her fly away, i don't want her to leave. I want her to embrace me forever and keep me smileing. She thinks that I make her feel better but it's the warmth of our arms together that she feels. I need her more than she needs me. I want her to hold me close and never let go. I dont want to leave never.

The world

When you need me, I won't be here. When you want me I will leave. When you're mad at me I'll be right there with you to make things better. I am yet just a soul and I can't fix everything. like any other person in the world I have no sense of right and wrong and I take things for granted, but as time moves on I start to think about everything as a whole and how everything has changed. I have yet to catch the princess, let go of my prince, and save the world but to be honest, what life would be complete with out your number 1 problem that you can't solve. Everything isn't what it's meant to be and when it is it won't be right.

Another break in the mirror

I run through a maze, nothing to look forward to, nothing to go back to yet I keep running as if time is running out. The sand keeps falling and I keep slipping into nowhere. The princess and the affair at two different ends of the maze. If one is lost, the mirror breaks forever, only to be repaired by tape. To choose the princess means I must battle my way to the title of prince and have her crown me hers but if I choose the other then my life will forever be uncertain. Leading into the dark with no light. Should I give up and keep with the middle road that leads in one circle forever back to the same two roads? Until then I won't know.

Broken, shattered and killed

She passes day by day, telling me of her world of dresses and kings but she has yet to side with a prince. With the forbidden prince by her side I fear the kingdom may fall under a demon. I sit to the side, telling little unwanted stories hoping she will get the message that her guard has no heart for she holds it. But Now a new chapter has arisen and the plot is twisted far more. A price has eyes for the guard and how can she react but to let him take her. In her state of mind, no one cares and the world falls to ruin with ring of promise. The guard's mother is going through her own hell and cannot steer her daughter through the mess. The mothers prince lies on a bed full of roses and all mother can do is pray he can win against his demons and open his eyes before the line drops. The guard is caught between her love loving another, a price loving herself, and her mother being miles away. How will she survive or will she take her own life. The chapter is still being written and the story will soon come to a climax.

Last day for a week.

Thinking back on today, I see why I mistaken for something else. The banners went up and the screams let lose as the games began. My finger bleeds and I can't help thinking that she is out there without me. Shall she get home saftly? Shall she call me? My right hand man assures me that things are okay but my mother says differntly. With the long walk over, she screems just to show how she cares. I try to contact my fair maiden but alas, she never picks up. The day nears an end and not even my knight comes to save me from my thoughts. With a knife in hand and a bag ready, I wish to duel to the end with him.
I say, fair maiden, if you happen to be reading then I wish to you a million roses, every bit a beautiful as you. Just call me back, let me into your life and let me hold you tighly to fill my own void. Let me kiss your rosey cheeks and let my skin touch yours. Just let me into your life.
KMS

The last month or so

Okay, I just want to say that I know I haven't been on and if anyone care then please let me know. Anyway, I'll give you all what you want.
Today the princess and I went to go and watch a tournament. The whole game was fair and just but I know how things have been. See, my old prince left me and I was quite happy but I couldn't live with myself knowing that he wasn't okay so I took my brain out and but it on the side. Thus I am back with him but that stills leaves the princess with her stupid prince. Her and her prince got in a fight last moon about family. The princess was noble and just about her home while the princes had nothing but poison to spill about the fair maiden's home life. I had to sit back because once more, she is not mine to save. The princess did say one thing that perked my ears. "Dear knight, you have fought so sweetly but I am bound to my prince. If I ever escape my bond then I will be yours for the run." I am now in this fight for her but what to do about my own prince whom will not leave me for another.