The battle

I shall now return to my place as guard captain but as I have ventured across lands I have looked back on my life. The princess, dancing in my dreams and forever more just a forbidden friend and the lonely boy whom is enchanted with thoughts of me. Both so needed in my life but one cannot be with me without the other gone forever. I have walked the middle road for so long and it has done nothing but tear my heart between the two. Now the time has come where I must choose one over the other. But whom will it be? I don't know if I can decide.