I'll Close My Eyes.

All the things I see every day. Faces, expressionless and stone. A laugh is a rare thing in a world so cold. Love, something so pure, is subject to rules of the unholy. Things changed and the past is a reminder of how this will go if I don't stop it. But how can one change how she feels? My dreams remind me everyday that I'm doing something wrong. Something is wrong and my human cannot explain why this is. Lost, in and out of control. I want my heart to stop again. Want to feel that perfect love again but that passion has left me. Our relationship has become something that resembles what my prince did to me. I only have one to understand me, to help me, but his captor fears for her life that her own will be stolen out from under her. I judge other relationships only because I'm looking for a way to save my own. Where does the heart stopping love go when the couple has become too used to one another? I want to block it all out, pretend there isn't a thing wrong but I know there will always be a problem. I can't block it out. Wonderland has grown too far from my mind. I have to face real life or lose myself looking for a way out.