Forgotten....

Forget me. Forget what I meant. Forget how we used to play and forget how it felt to be in each other's arms. Forget the promise we made late at night cause what is a promise but a few empty words strung together in a sentence? I want to believe it was truth, wanted to think it would be you and me against the world. Thought nothing could tear us apart cause we were stronger than any brick wall. I thought we could make it though anything. And now where are you? You're in that damned room with that damned girl ready to suck up every last bit of hope you ever had. She's a vampire and she'll suck you dry. Devine nature and yet somehow you can't see that she's a panther ready to feed. She's hurt, full of hate for a world that scorns her so. I hate her. She tears down any wall you make. She tears her way into your chest and carves away at the love in your heart. She'll bring any man to his knees crying and now she's after you. Is it because I'm in love? Is it because I care for someone? Is it because that someone is you? Why is she doing this to me? There's so much of me that wants to storm in there and take her by the neck, ask why she has to mess up my happily ever after? I hate her for what she's done, what she is doing, and what she will you but most of all I hate her cause I might become her. There is so much rage bottled up in my heart just begging for release. So much I just want to let go but so much that I hold back. I'll never be yours and I know that. I'll never be good enough for you, never in my life I be able to be with you. So why is it that I still want to guard you tightly? Why do I still want to love you so? I hate this horrible feeling, feeling of slowly dieing inside wanting to see you. Just out of the corner of my eye or to be in the same room as you, it makes me so happy. Yet somehow I fill with these shakes cause I know you couldn't care less if I'm in that room. I know I'm hardly in your life and that feeling of worthlessness that brings me so low every time. You make me cry yet you bring hope for tomorrow. I love you yet I hate you. I love you but I can't stay in the same room as you. I love you but you're too good for me. I need to learn my place. If only that place could be up in the sky, flying high with you. I love you, my sweet sweet hell bound angel. I love you.... why is it you'll never know?