I'm left empty. I've cried the hardest I could. I'm trying to find the strength to move on after last night. Maybe the strength to just find some joy in the world. Find something that doesn't make me want to run to you. I drew a picture today, but I just wanted you to see it. I played a new game today but I just wanted you to play it with me. I watched my favorite Disney movie but I just wanted to laugh with you. I want to sleep but I'm scared you'll be in my dreams again and if my dreams sound anything like you, I won't be able to hold it together. Honestly I can hardly hold on right now. I want it to be like the movies where I could walk over in the rain and you'd take everything back. I don't even want to walk around because I know I'll wander straight to you. I feel like everything worth living for is living in you.
But I won't let myself break down. I've got to be strong until you come back. I know now that no matter what I do or say, nothing will happen until you let it. I just hope you felt something while I was crying into your chest. I hope you've seen that I am nothing without you.
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