I Want to Die

You could drive up right now and I'd go with you. I don't care about anything else. All I'd need is some clothes and I'd run with you. I don't even think you know how serious I am. I would do anything for you. Am I making this too easy? Am I supposed to be distant and act like I don't need you? That's not how this works. I hate everything in my life but it's stable. It's all so stable and calm and that's what I've needed for a long time but if you gave me a chance, I'd leave it all behind. I'd rather struggle with you than live comfortably. I'd rather scrape up my knees running with you than keep walking. You don't understand how much I don't want to be here but I have nothing else and no reason to change it. Give me a reason. Come find me, tell me that's you still want to be around me. Tell me I'm not worthless. You're the only one who can save me and I want to save you. Give me something to live for.