Tonight

I don't know what to say or think, don't know how to feel because everything reminds of what I gave up. I don't want to feel this way but I know this is how it should be. The night feels so much colder, the day is too bright and these noises are too loud. I feel like an infected wound, where the slightest breath of air burns against me. I've tried to block it all out but when I do, I can't feel anything because everything is his. A perfect human in a perfect world and I feel like an insect that needs to be killed. He doesn't seem to care and I can't tell what he's hiding. Just feels like I ripped off a limb. It's not impossible to block it out and I guess I could try but deep down I know that everything I do, everything I say, I will think of him.