Alone is a Funny Feeling

All the fingerprints of those who changed me. Like footprints on the moon, no one can take away those feelings. I know the devil doesn't know what he put me through. Angel doesn't know how much he meant. A demon didn't know the hope he gave and a prince didn't know how he saved me. Soon, I will be lost to them. When they leave again, I don't know what I'll do. Every day, I just walk on, foot in front of the other. I have things on my mind and faces in my head. So much has happened and I wonder, am I ready for another summer? Two years ago, my summer turned my life upside down. I learned of the heart racing love of someone who didn't love you. It may seem strange but I miss the feeling. Heart racing, mind blurring infatuation. That must be what drove me off a cliff and honestly, I don't deserve the life I have and I'm not even sure if I want it anymore. I feel like a very heavy heart. When I wake up, I don't see much point in the day. I used to wake up wondering what the day would be. I miss adventure but I like the safety net I have. What would life be like to live on the edge again? I thought the same thing two years ago and I had the best summer. Should I let history repeat itself? And tomorrow, the last of what keeps me going will be gone. I have my human but I wonder when he will see the broken girl I have come to be. I wonder when he'll give up.