My Little Sister.

It's hard to believe it's been so long since I last thought of you.It's been so long since everything. Your birth, our bothers' births, Michel's death. So much has changed since then, but I'm sure you're watching closely. Your father, Ken, won't talk to Me and Mom anymore but I'm sure he remembers his babies. He's living happy with someone more like him and I hope it works out. Mom and I are living from paycheck to paycheck right now but things will get easier as time goes on. I'm glad you didn't have to meet her last boyfriend, Arthur. He wasn't very nice but I'm sure he was just stressed. I hope him and his daughter are happy without us there. Mom has a new boyfriend and he's nice. His name is Stephen. He isn't like the others and mom really likes him. He is living with us for about a week or so and mom is enjoying all the time together. I have a boyfriend too and we've been together for just over 2 years now and his name is Jamie. I'm sure he would have loved you. Me and him are really close and he is the only one really keeping me sane. Things are looking up and everyday is bright. It's summer time and everything is really pretty out. I've been having fun with all my friends and their drama. High school is really fun and next year I'll be a sophomore. Bartlett is really fun. I want you to know that I really miss you and I wish you were here. I'm sure you would have lots of friends in elementary school and I'd help you with your spelling words if you needed help. No matter how much time passes, promise you'll wait for your older sister? I'll be looking for you and so will mom. We love you so much and I miss you so much.
I Love you Serenity, I always will. Your the sister that I always wanted and hoped for. I'll never forget you. Love forever and always, your big sister, Kyrie.

Change-

The need for the recreation of me is almost suffocating. I can't pretend I don't hear the constant cry for a new life. I love my life now but change is so unpredictable, you can't control when you might feel this way. I feel no imperfections in my skin and I feel no blood running in my current life but something tells me that an alter-ego would show me something quite beneficial. I don't consider myself to have multiple personalities but there is a time in everyones life when change seems like a good way to go, but the ever constant need to protect the life you had pushes you to reinvent yourself. Weather it be for at home in your room, online, or out in the world. Once the alter-ego is created, it can become a split personality but you would know about it. Name it, control it, and over-all, give it life. So go on and wear those clothes you couldn't walk out of your house with. Put on tons of make-up, wear the too short skirt, put up the hair and make it all your own. Be who you want to be at this moment because there is only today. Don't waste it fearing.

A letter to Karma.

It's true that there are things I hide. It's true that I cry. There are times when I feel worthless, times when facing another day seems so impossible. I try so hard to go through the day, hoping for a miracle. Hoping that my life will get just that much brighter. I hope that the shooting star I wish on will do me a favor. I hope for a day when I don't doubt myself. Minutes turn into hours. Hours into days. Days to months. Months into another year. Still, even after so much time, I never give up hope because I don't want to let go of something so familiar to me. I try so hard not to cry because that just means that another miracle can't come true because I'm spending too much time drying my tears instead of looking for something to be happy about. So why am I so happy all the time? Why am I so against fighting? Why am I trying to fix every one's problems? Because maybe, just maybe, after all this helping and caring, karma will stop being such a bitch and give me a miracle. -2006
Thank you karma for giving me my miracle. I'll take care of his heart for as long as I live.