Each Breath

Breath on a cold night, you see it dissolve into the air. Sitting on a ledge, you wonder what it could be to jump from so high and see if you can fly. Lighting the fire, you want to touch the flame to test your life. It's nothing to wonder if you really are alive. But things go to far. Things get out of hand. One thought could turn into a lifetime of pure regret. I don't want to be that girl in the corner, watching you wondering if it meant anything. I don't want to lie awake, wondering what happened. Here I am, wondering what happened. Wondering if it meant anything. Should I be attached to that past? Should I cherish that memory? Either way, I let it float away with the coming of morning. I won't be that girl. I won't let it hurt me. Clouds drift by and letting that go is still ripping me apart. I don't dare cry, I won't let myself be so weak. I want to erase such a thing but I want to keep it close to my heart. But it meant nothing, it was nothing. Better off just letting myself go. Better off just falling to fly. Because it wasn't really a one night stand. Because it was nothing, because it didn't happen. Breath in, breath out. Fog your mind.