Hate

I still think back to the kiss shared three years ago. I think back to that sad day. I think back to the day when I first met the devil. She is still in my life but I know she still wants more. Her hateful glares that scream at me. how I want to forget her face forever. I want her to go away. I hate her for she has made me regret my life. She tricked me until she had her way. now I want to hurt her. I want her to die. I hate her. She killed me with lust. She took control of my life in ten minutes and now the bruises remind me that it wasn't my love like I had told myself. I told myself that he was there, doing those things. I screamed his name but when i opened my eyes, it was her. I had been fooled. I could I have let myself be sucked into it. Why was I so stupid. I hate her for now I know that I am no longer myself. I want her to go away. I want her to stop talking, stop looking at me, stop killing me slowly. Now the time has come. I shall give her a taste of hell. The devil needs to go back and leave me alone. Three years i have dealed with this crap and now it's too late. I will rid myself of her.

When Love is convused.

I'm in heaven when he kisses me. Sent from above, this man I have fallen for has taken me to dark place in my mind I never knew exsisted. This new part is full of lust and passion but is it for him? The princess I have loved for so long, fill in my head as his hand slipped under my shirt. I pushed him away, why would she be here after she has been gone for so long? I kissed another, I wanted another, but I cannot survive without him. As my mind goes deeper into the mysteries of my newly uncovered self, My mind acts on it first thoughts. My love was a series of kisses that seemed to all scream lust. As my body fell into pure undieing pools of red, my hands fell over his arms, my lips on his, my brain in a dark corner blocking this all out for this is not the gaurd you love, this is a woman older and more powerful than myself. This is the introduction to Emily. She takes my time with my new love and steals him into a swirl of evil kisses that spin into bites and scraches. Everytime though I am able to take control and stop the maddness before it goes to far. It makes me wonder when will the day come that she won't let me back? When she takes my love into her grasp and doesn't let him stop till she is done. When will the day come when a mental war starts in my head to take control of my own body. When will I lose, when will I wake up one day with him next to me? When will I lose myself to myself. When that day peaks its head over the hill, I will try to win.