I love him

I love him.  I've come to terms with that.  I love him even after everything.  If I could, I would tell him, but that would ruin both our lives.  I wish it didn't take so long.  I wish I  could've known sooner. I love him and I know that now but it's because I love him that I have to let him leave.  He's gonna go find another girl,  one who will see sooner than I did, that she loves him. He'll be happy. I want to be happy. And as my heart slowly breaks,  as the days tick by till he leaves,  I'll have only my memories of a million missed chances.  We could've been forever but he'll be better off without me.
I've held on so tight for so many years. Kept him trapped close to me but letting him go means he can be happy.  I'll be sad, missing him for the hole he'll leave, but to see him happy....hopefully that'll be enough. But I'll always love him.